[[my birthplace is a tourist town now.->TouristTown]]
[[tangled up and buried under tropical escapes.->CollectTheMemories1]]
(if: $end >= 2)[[the last remnant is a sunrise->sunrise]](text-colour:white)[
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when i was younger i told myself
my left pointer finger [[curved->curved]] inward
because my fathers finger did the same
pointing off center undefined
his name was a ghost under my tongue]
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i hugged a statuette at the end of our driveway
and gave away the title
father
even when i grew taller than him
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<span class="highlighted_text">
my mother told me parts of me are buried
under a tree far away
they're still there
[[growing taller than me->father]]
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<span class="highlighted_text">does it make you sad
when you find the story ive written
stuffed in the corners
of my mouth
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<img src="https://saanviram.github.io/LemonCrop/images/wasitherwishortheirs.png" width="600" height="600">
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it's been part of me
in the loss
as much as a hole
[[can be part of anything->mapsonmaps]]
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</span>{
(set: $event to (random: 1, 5))
}
(if: $event is 1)[whose lips are these]
(elseif: $event is 2)[when i smile who do you see]
(elseif: $event is 3)[when i speak whose tongue is it]
(elseif: $event is 4)[who do you want me to be]
(elseif: $event is 5)[a stranger as much as anyone]
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<span class="highlighted_text">
what about my redacted
mother
i had unusual ways
of visualizing her
someone said i looked like her
so i look really hard
into screens
i assume she is wrapped around me
tight like plastic wrap
there but trans-parent
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</span>
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<source src=" https://saanviram.github.io/LemonCrop/images/Sequence 01.mp4"type="video/mp4">
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<blink> [[squeezing me into being->anothermother]]
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¿when i speak whose tongue is it
flat
without accent
does it sound different
[[in my mothers mouth->backsofphotographs]]
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<span class="highlighted_text">
on the backs of the photos
you gave me
you've written notes
about all the places surrounding
the house
the home
the origin
scattered about as if you yourself
did not want to show me
[[x marks the spot->release]]
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<img src="https://saanviram.github.io/LemonCrop/images/Longroad.png" width="1979" height="3380">
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<span class="highlighted_text">
my mother is an x on a line
instead of a name
at [[the end->longshadow]] of a child release form
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</span>
my father is a long shadow
on a closing door
that i have to imagine
all by myself
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<img src="https://saanviram.github.io/LemonCrop/images/00000651.png" width="1979" height="3380">
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[[reconcile, gather->release]]emptied out
[[boxes under the stairs->Start]]<html>
when i was older
you gave me a small piece of that place
a red and white sunrise
housed in plastic
i keep this piece of plastic
in the same box
with love notes
from forgotten loves
pieces of luck
and other sacred things
<img src="https://saanviram.github.io/LemonCrop/images/sunrise2.png" width="1979" height="3380">
[[you dont even remember giving it to me now->Start]]
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